Using My Voice
Turns out, I'm terrified of using my voice.
Not scared of what to say, I am crystal clear on where I stand.
What I am afraid of, is what others will do with it. Having to completely give up control over their reaction and surrender to their choices.
But I'm learning that the reaction to my voice is not a reflection of me, but a freeing in them.
Transition
I’ve been visited by herons a bit lately.
Herons are teachers in being with uncertainty, in transition, between worlds. One foot in the water, one on land, hunting in twilight. Fitting, with one more month left living by the water.
The Swan
My favourite piece of music right now is ‘The Swan’ from Carnival Of The Animals. It inspired my first intentionally layered drawing in preparation of actual artwork. As in NOT design. As in no function other than to exist.
#spaceshells
#spaceshells
Seeing the large in the small never ceases to amaze me. Today featuring the milky way in a few shells.
Spilt Milk
My Grandma Polly (the most courageous person I've ever known) had a favourite saying:
"Don't cry over spilt milk."
In her apartment I discovered the world of play-doh and spilled lots of apple juice on tablecloths that were "going to be washed today anyways". I still associate the word 'thirsty' with juice. And messes with "no big deal".
So I make things. Lots of them. What's the worst that can happen? There's gold in every mess I ever made.
A funny thing happens when you make things all the time (and you don't care about the mess).
You realize you can do anything.
Everything was made up by someone somewhere. You can unmake it. Or remake it. All you need is imagination.
Eagle Eyes
Predators fascinate me – especially their eyes. It’s like I’m looking through the layers of the natural world.
Cricket Hill
Cover drawing for Jonas Ellison’s Medium publication Cricket Hill
Palmera
This is the sum of all memories of palm trees, platano chips, unicorn-girlfriends, tropical beaches, flowers, my fav black mirror episode, and the longing for the next sunset surf.
Staying
Having decided to STAY has opened up a whole new world to me.
Suddenly I can join things without the customary "well, I can commit until June...", I no longer have to say no to purchases that tie me down (things that are bigger than a suitcase), I can fully engage in relationships that always used to live within the confines of my plane tickets and the love I reserved for people you don't know ...as if love was somehow limited.